|The Analogs by Miss Wander Girl
I lived through the age of film photography. Watching this video from Buzzfeed pretty much sums up my 90\’s experience of film photos.
Going through our family photos, one could notice chronological gaps:
- There was a time when we can\’t afford to develop a film because it\’s expensive. I remember just buying the 12 shot films because it was cheaper than the 24 and 36. It\’s also cheaper when developed. Those were the times that we need to at least have some \”remembrance\” of a family moment.
- Our camera (Canon Pixma) has a different kind of battery and it was expensive. And difficult to find.
- As for my personal issues, I was fat so my face looks siopao. I have no idea yet of \”angles\”. There came a time that I lost weight and my chin didn\’t compliment my face (I hate the shitty body image disturbance era in my teenage years!). Most of the time, I refuse for a solo picture. I was too hard on myself back then (sheesh!). If I had known what I know now siguro mas madami akong good memories.
I can\’t delete, redo nor see the photo after shooting. Selfies are a big no-no and a total waste of frames. My dream camera back then was a Polaroid.
I learned about re-copying photos by borrowing the films used. It\’s a cheap alternative but photos are likely to be darker in shade. It was a complete hassle when others want to borrow the film as well. Patience was not my greatest virtue back then. Sometimes, I just don\’t bother following up and leave it.
That\’s why I\’m thankful for digital photography (I think relieved is the most appropriate word it). It has its pros and cons. On a personal level , it has stopped the chronological gap of remembering our special moments and memories.
From my sister\’s FB wall post:Our fat cat, Chiyo was scratching on the cabinet doors where old photo albums are kept. I decided to check one album and saw these photos of the 2 year old me with Auntie Simple. It\’s only now that I realized that what my relatives were saying about me is true: payatot daw ako noon. So bakit ngayon hindi na? LOL.
And I commented:Alam ko ito. Ito yung picture na ako ang kumuha. Oi wag ka eto
ata yung SLR na gift ni dad kay mom. Infernez, alam ako na ang
rule of thirds…hahaha tapos naalala ko pa kinagabihan pagbalik
ni mom sa trabaho…Sino gumamit ng kamera?! Si ninang sabay turo
sa akin hahahahaha laglagan kung laglagan hahahahha tapos sabi ni
mom grabe ang daming nasayang anim na kuha…
* This is the time back then that developing a film is not cost-effective
And now it looks like its only Ninang\’s memories are that\’s left
I\’m sorry if I couldn\’t be there to see you for the last time. You\’ve always been so proud of us. KC is right, you are our stage mother. You never fail to encourage us when we\’re down, make us laugh with your crazy antics and just be yourself. Life must go on as they say but all the happy memories that you left us will remain.
I know you\’re in a better place now. We\’ll miss you alot T_T